Leaving On A Jetplane (2008 version)

Very soon bebeh... Just another 7 days...


Update would be on a daily-basis. Hopefully... ;-)

... the beauty of not knowing...

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Después de pensar
Después de ver
A mi dolor andar
sobre el agua del mar

Tibia claridad , que vi
Por mi calle pasar
Sin saber que hacer
Sin sentir o pensar

Sólo que aún hoy , sigo aún
Aún hoy sigo
Atándome a ti

Aún hoy , mi amor , te doy
Mi cuerpo con alma
Se esconde del sol

De noche se escapa
Aún hoy, te doy
Mi cuerpo con alma
Aún hoy , aún hay

Que esconde la noche
Va a guardar
De nosotros dos
O sentir o pensar

Se me llenó de luz la noche
Es porque yo vi nadar
Delfines en tu voz
Y sentí sin pensar

Sólo que aún hoy , sigo aún
Aún hoy sigo
Amándote a ti

Aún hoy, mi amor , aún hay
Dos cuerpos con alma
Se esconden del sol
De noche se escapan
De noche se dan
Los cuerpos , las almas
Aún hoy, aun hay

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Didn't understand a thing? Wonder what the h*** was that? Too bad, I'm not gonna tell... :-D

But does it occur to me, you and some other people that sometimes, the beauty of not knowing is something that we can't resist? Chatted with an online fella of truly yours just now, and she tells me that one of her fella is quite... uhmmm... afraid of telling his feels towards this girl. Keep on waiting to tell, apparently that girl is going to get enganged THIS WEEKEND!

I can't blame him. Not many people are gutsy enough to stand up and tell to the one they fell for (him, her and/or anything in between) that he/she meant everything to her/his life. Many of them (yours truly included!) afraid of rejection. Others are hindered by some other factors (i.e he/she is married already, he/she in a r'ship with someone else, family issue, he/she has history of 'fling', he/she ran over her/his favourite cat, KLCI is keep going down, subprime lending crisis in US, BN losing 2/3 majority, PAS still ruling Kelantan etc etc...)

Some people said that... If you stand up & tell, at least there's some percentage of success, while if you don't, then the outcome is almost certain to be 'niente'... The problem with the rule of probability is that, they never teach you about what to do with the result of that. It's up to us on how to deal with it. But I guess that's the beauty of not knowing. You just keep on hoping that he/she will open his/her heart to you. It keeps giving you an extra incentive to smile, to live, to feel happy, to cheer up and feel better. Yours truly is no different.

*... to be honest, i have no idea whatsoever what i'm talking about... *

... and to certain someone, tomorrow's your birthday. Happy birthday bebeh... ;-)

'Wind Of Change' or 'Animal Farm'

Hmmm... It's been almost a year since the last post. Asyik2 kena kutuk sbb tak update, sapa buleh tahan... :-D

Well, right now I'm still at the office. And no, I'm not one of the newly-elected reps to either Parliament or State (although that kind of thought sometimes do crossed naughty brain of mine!). I'm just 'on-call' cum 'standby' for this General Election, which has left left perplexed since last night.

Diclaimer : I'm not a member of any political parties nor supporters. Just an observer, well.. more or less...

So.. Let's start with what happened last night, shall we?

OK... I was at SPR Putrajaya yesterday (12 a.m till 8 a.m...) for this kind of 'on call'. Being sleepy & tired after 8 hours, couldn't resist the temptation of having a good night (actually, day!) sleep on my own bed and all. The intention of going to vote was there, but after a good rest, yours truly only managed to wake up at 6:30 P.M.!!! There goes one vote! So, it's going to be a second time in a row that yours truly didn't managed to see the black gate of Mordor... errr.. I mean, the election venue or post or whatever...

Then, lunner (lunch + dinner) and just watching the idiot box (a.k.a television) to watch some analysis that come and goes like those mat rempits during saturday night at some highways. A bit bored here and there, so I guess 'layaning' my bantal will be the best option for me (it's still around 9 p.m., mind you). During the 'mamai2' phase, SMS came knocking on my HP's door. Can't remember the detail of it, but it says s'thing like some CM has accept the defeat of his state to the Opposition.

Strike One : Don't care much about it.

Few minutes later, another SMS banging on my HP's door. This time around, just another SMS that confirmed the 1st SMS.

Strike Two : Don't care much about it either.

Then the ultimate SMS. One minister, who I assume, has an office(s) in every toll companies in Malaysia has been defeated afterrr... how many years ek? The ultimate 'gangb***' was that, that GE was held on his very own birthday! So I guess his voters wants to give him the 'nicest' birthday present that someone could ever give to someone else. An everlasting retirement! So, in a way, he should thank his voters nevertheless. I guess his voters also concern that this fella has been working too hard. Too hard that he couldn't entertain the plea of 27 million people but rather listening to his reps, by which are located in several toll companies.

But that SMS is just a beginning. At least for me. And it was enough for me to wake up & scrambling for the remote control...

So there it goes. The domino effect of 'people's power'. At first, 'that' minister. Then another minister, who claimed that she has done a lot to his people of her constitution, yet defeated to a newcomer. Well, that's true, she's a newcomer. But her father is not. Not that I deny what she has done, but face it. It's a politic. If you lose, it's either people don't like you or don't like your party. You may have choose the right game, but you (or your party) has choose a wrong constitution to contest on, hence, choose a wrong opponent. Move on, sister...

Who's next? Ohhh... The 'Erection' Minister. Nothing much about him that I want to rant about. Move on as well...

Then, another minister or the deputy or the parliament secretary or MPs or ADUNs. One after another. Around 1 a.m., I've decided that I've watched enough and went frolicking with miss bed and mrs pillows. However, during the mamai phase (again!), I get an SMS, which confirmed that :-

1) Kelantan is (at least for now) still, again and belongs to P**. So, B* hafta come out with s'thing new on the next election. However, this is only true IF they managed to survive until next election!

2) Kedah, Penang, Perak & Selangor are STILL part of Malaysia. Just because you won these states last time, doesn't mean that you can ignore us. You're trying to woo one state, but lost several of them!

3) We know how to use the internet and get the news from the other side. Ever heard of 'Information Superhighway'? The only highway that has no toll whatsoever (thank God for that!). Next time, build a 'tanah merah' instead!

4) Never get over-confident. Last week you might be the Mentri Besar, tomorrow morning you have to put 'former' or 'ex' in front of that title. Last week, you're nobody. Today, you're still nobody. That's life. There are always ups & downs.

5) Somebody may have a lot of work to do tomorrow : To 'seek and destroy' certain documents from certain offices. If not, better commit harakiri/seppuku a.s.a.p. Give me a call if you need a swordsman.

6) Opposition party : You have to make sure that you can fulfill your promises. Otherwise... well.. there's always (hopefully) next GE. And we'll make sure that the ink will be used! Otherwise, I may have plenty at home. Maybe it's whatever left during my primary & secondary school

7) Never count that someone who was jailed before wouldn't become CM. And someone who still behind the bars couldn't win the election. Damn! Why didn't I ran over that fella last month?! It's his fault anyway. I could have been an MP right now!

8) If you're a politician, pray that the next GE won't be held on your very own birthday! It may spell a bad luck for you. So, if you were born during Jan-May (I guess), you better think twice of contesting for the next GE. Lucky me, I'm a LIBRA bebeh!

9) Somebody has to answer to someone else that why, after spending tons of money on ads, that they still could only muster a simple majority. All this while the other side couldn't even get a few ms of ads. I also wonder what will happen to the fellas who says on that ads that they plead a full support for the ruling party. If they still have guts to say it right now, well I guess, it's good for them. The very least is, they didn't jump from one party to another.

10) Some simple remarks from your party member DOES have an impact on YOU! Any sexist statement and undermining people are totally UNACCEPTABLE!. You said the 'bocor' thing towards another MP, I guess you were upset because your significant other was, unfortunately, 'bocor' last night? And asking other people to 'close on eye' about your urmmm scandal, is like comitting harakiri/seppuku. Please call me as well if you need a swordsman.

A colleague of mine told me that, once the certain minister has been announced that he has been defeated after about 30 years in power, there's an uproar and 'celebration'. And we are talking about the journalists inside the media room of the election commission, not some ordinary person or member of opposition parties! I guess they are also tired after asking tons of questions to him, everytime there's an annual celebration of toll hike. I also had a small hope this morning while driving, that I can passed through the toll gate without stopping (I'm not talking about using SMART Tag here!), but I guess, I should be patient and wait for a while until the dust is settled. Or is it?

Well... The tribe has spoken. People has made their choice. Well, at least 70% of 10 million of them. But one thing that I hope for the opposition parties is that, the power that is given by people, will be used for the good of the people. Whatever wrongs that you have promised to make it right, make sure you fulfill their hope. I'm still waiting for a reduction of oil prices, toll rate and cigarette tax. Do you hear me? OK, I can compromise on that cigarette tax. Wanna quit anyway...

The only thing I'm afraid of... is the 'Animal Farm' of Malaysian version. Don't know what's 'Animal Farm'? Well, it's the era of cyberspace bebeh. I'm sure you can find it online. Ever heard of Wikipedia?

And to some people... The government may change, the power may shift, the toll rate may be reduced and the phantom voter might be created & vanished like a dust. BUT YOU STILL OWE ME LAAAA... How can this be? I've been waiting and waiting. Forget that you owe me issit? And you promised that you're going to pay. Di mana janji2 manismu??? Thank God you're not politician. But if you are politician and won the election, I'm willing to write it off. As long as you give me few APs, lesen balak, kontrak2 besar etc etc... :-D

Errrr... Should I say NAK or TAK NAK...???

Hello blog,

Yeah, I know it's a been a longgggggggggggggggggggggg time since the last time I even log in to this blog. So much things happened for the last couple of months. But so what? Shit happens. Next!

So what about that little today's blog tittle?

-- fly by at the petrol station near the office last night. eager to be a batman with wings and stuff, but since it's just a fictitional character, guess i hafta settle down with red bull instead, coz their marketing scam said s'thing like 'red bull gives you wings'! i know, it's been late nite (around 00:00:00). this is pretty much our conversation (me & that chap at the counter).

me - bang, red bull satu...
thin chap (the fat chap will come into picture later) - kitorang dah tutup le bang.
me - dah tutup? takpe la... amikkan je le, takkan takleh amik. saya nak beli air ni.
thin chap - takleh le bang.
me - (pointing to the chubby a.k.a fat chap) abang pun takleh amikkan ke? (at that time, he's not at the counter, rather, closer to the fridge where my bull is waiting to be bought & consumed)
fat chap - takleh le bang
me - abis apa yg buleh saya beli? kalau ada org haus camne?
thin chap - dah malam ni, kitorang cuma buleh jual minyak & rokok je bang.benda lain semua tak masuk sistem

at that point,i just show them 'talk to the hand' stuff and just drive home...

ok, one thing i dun quite understand.i thot pak lah (and gomen) encourages us to say TAK NAK to rokok. but apparently, our own national oil company somehow indirectly doing the total opposite.no wonder the campaign is a big flop right now. it's not the smokers fault! whose fault is it if the smoker wants to buy s'thing to temporarily cure his addiction to nicotine, and somehow been indirectly encouraged to buy another pack of Marlboro...???

Totally not my fault to go for the latter, albeit at kedai mamak...!!!


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hmmm.. also, shud i say NAK or TAK NAK for THAT question. that's the problem when you do s'thing without thinking. padan muka...!!!

keep on walking...

The End Of The World

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world
Cause you don't love me anymore

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything is the same as it was
I can't understand, no I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye

Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye

if i can't have you.... i don't want nobody baby...

Finally... a (quite) meaningful update...

Still alive. Still kickin'. Been quite busy since Dec last year. No thanks to all the workload in the office and business.. not to mention, emotional feelings that went up and down... like rollercoaster. But at least, when you ride a rollercoaster, you'd know it's going to stop at certain time. Well... whether or not you're alive and well or end up like Final Destination 4, very much left to the fate, rather than someone's premonition...

Had a shopping spree last year. No thanks (well... actually, thanks a lot!) to the bonuses & increments & promotions. Bought several toys (i.e Xbox 360... huhuhuhu... kick ass!!!!), sign up the PT session & membership at fitness centre and several other things as well. Thank God I have put quite significant dough in my account, otherwise, sure dah papa kedana skrg ni....

Apparently, right now, my hand (my bank account rather!) are itching for one of these...



































It's a DSLR! Tapi belum tau beli ke tak! Usha je. Macam ada masa nak beramas mesra ngan benda ni. Keje yg ada pun rasa cam nak pengsan!

Well, life in the office is OK. Had to attend several meetings to win the project. Instead of being an engineer, now I feel like I'm more and more of a consultant. Can't complaint, since I love to go out & meet the those potential clients and do the presentation, rather than stuck here for 9 hours cracking my head to troubleshoot the problem. But still, I have no complaint whatsoever.

It's also a hectic life for the last several weeks, coz we are trying to woo this potential client to pick us as their provider. Therefore, we have to do some POC (kind of test drive) and spent several weeks cracking my whole body, head, ass etc etc. Even I hafta slept in the office (tak balik rumah!) for few days. Bila balik rumah, rasa cam pelik je. Rasa cam tak penah lalu lak jalan balik rumah tu!

But somehow, it makes me ponder the idea of applying to become a conslutant (typo intended). I know that there's a vacancy there (in the company), but somehow i think, it's not a good idea of having two jobs & two bosses. Although a double salary would be very much welcomed (who whouldn't, but i doubt it's going to happen!). Or maybe i shud look somewhere else. I mean, if i can do the job, but there's no opportunity to do it or not offered to me, why shud i stay kan? I used to turn down a nice offer last year (increment, but demotion) from a nice company, but i said 'nehi'. I guess they were surprised bcoz of my decision, but i know i've made the right one. But this time around, if & when somebody offers you to do things that you can do best, with a nice $$$, and a closer workplace to home, why should i say 'no' kan? I guess it's time for me to move on (or out). But should i...?

Well, I hope none of my colleague will read this blog. For them, this blog has been dead long time ago, due to my limited time & space to update it...

Regarding my emotional life, i have no idea on how to describe it. But let's just say that i'm more than ready to settle down... it's good to love & to be loved by someone. If someone asked me about who's in my mind right now, it's always this particular girl... whom i think i like her very very much...

But i guess, i should just keep it to myself... at least for now... of course i'm going to tell her... someday. i just hope that i'm not too late... and i think she's a nice & lovely girl...

More ramblings later... Right now, i have to get s'thing to eat... and go straight to the meeting...

Hello....

Hello my blog...

OK... the hapdet will be coming soon enough... SOON ENOUGH.... Just wait for a while ek?