Shades Of Purple...

Hmmm...

Looks like it has been a while since the last time I updated this blog. Chatterbox pun expired dah! Kena renew lak... That's what I hate about 'em. Dah register tu, suke ati aku le.. nak komen ari2 ka... 2 tahun sekali ka...

Anywayzzzz...

What to update? Hmmm... Nothing much. We lost 2 engineers last month. And no... they are still alive and kicking. But both of them have 'migrated' to other company. A bigger one. A much much bigger and larger than us. But honestly, I hold no grudge whatsoever. My time will come... Hopefully. Both of them received a much better offer than this company could. Well, since Malaysia is a free country (although sometimes we might beg to differ), I just wish both of them good luck. But since one of them are senior engineer in our team, it means I have to step up and become unofficial senior engineer. A position that I couldn't care much, unless they give me a good pay and good perks. I don't even care about all the bruahahahaha about merging/acquisition, bonus, increment etc. It's not that I don't think it is important... But only I don't wanna waste my time thinking about things which totally not under my control. I'm not one of the shareholders... not one of the directors... and most fucking definitely, not one from management level. I'm just concentrating on getting the professional certificate(s), do my job and perhaps settled down as well.... well, maybe...

Which brings to another topic(s)...

I managed to finish all four courses under CCIP... WAITTTT!!! I said the COURSES, not EXAMS. I will take the exam in a slow-and-steady pace, one by one. The courses is OK, the instructors are greatly superb. So a big thank you to Global Knowledge... Thanks a lot guys and girls and ladies and gentlemen there. So by mid-Jun/July next year, the target is for me to get the double-cert. If the company wants to sponsor as well... it's good. If not, I'll just use my own money and they can't do anything. The bond agreement is not there. Next step? We'll see. Don't wanna think too much about it. Just wanna keep my feet firmly on the ground. All that thought is just kinda way of reevaluating my steps...

(What about the settling down part?)

Hmmm... Difficult one. Especially if you have nobody. Had a big row (again?) with my ex last night. Some things in this world could get reversed, if you know the right moves... Some are not, even if you're the one who invented that moves.

(So what's the current status?)

Not sure. Pending I guess. Dunno. Coz sometimes you need both parties to terminate the agreement. Although it's not the case when Malaysia called-off the proposal for 'that' bridge! Or is it?

(Don't you have someone else?)

Well... It depends on that 'someone else' tu jugak I guess. Yeah, managed to know some girls. But I guess maybe either I'm not ready to embrace myself to another challenge of having another relationship, or maybe still waiting for certain someone, or maybe I was doomed to be single... I don't know. Ye la.. ye la... Ajal maut di tangan Tuhan, kita kena usaha. I know all about that. Some people keep insisting me to call/meet this girl that they know of... sepupu lak, adik sedara la, minah kat company ni la, company kat sana la... But as I said, maybe I'm not ready yet. Well, if your previous relationship that lasted for 2 years could be terminated in just slightly 2 weeks, of course it's going to leave a big, huge scar on you heart and brain. Well.. especially brain. People said that it's difficult to find a good guy nowadays. Go fuck yourself! I can even lend you my car's exhaust pipe so you can stick it in your puss**/a**hole while enjoying myself watching a free movie of some bastard who embracing him/herself with that large and hot metal. Tell me if it's not huge enough! I could lend you some unused routers/switches over here!

The truth is... the same case happened to both parties. So if you are a guy, don't keep telling people that it's difficult to find a good girl. So as the girl. I mean... If you want to have a boyfriend/husband like David Beckham, you should learn how to transform yourself to become at least remotely resembles Victoria. If you keep bragging about wanna find a guy like Mawi (not him again!), you should try to change your appearance and attitude to become pretty much like Diana... although I'm not so sure which Diana that I'm referring to...

Anyway, work in the office is not getting easier and funnier. Especially when you have lost 2 engineers. Right now I'm waiting a phone call from Petronas... for their migration. Well.. although it's against my principle of doing any migration on Friday or Monday. But when your customer just recorded a profit of USD20 billion, I guess it's no brainer for me to say no. I'm just executing the task, not arguing... Although many times I did both...

Maybe I should ask my boss to let me go doing some outstation activities. Meeting, troubleshooting, evaluating stuff.. whatever. As long as I could have some rest. Trying to keep my head together, thinking about my future life, or even companion (if any). Not ballsy enough to go to Hatyai... and Perth is quite far away.

Right now I'm not sure whom that I missed so much. Maybe I knew, but still in a 'denial mode'...